I know that it’s been a long time ever since I had written video game reviews for this site, but as you know, I’m just very busy with my life. Since my last update, I have completed more homework and tests than usual and am currently completing major assignments for most of my courses that will affect my future. If I don’t be serious with maintaining good grades, then I won’t be able to go to the University of Guelph and be forced to go to a shitty community college instead. I finally got an offer of admission from York, but honestly they’re just doing that so they can earn my money (which isn’t working).
As for the military, I have went to the recruitment center again for an amplitude test and successfully passed it despite guessing most the answers and only getting roughly two thirds of it correct. Strange how I never did the physical fitness test, but now they actually want me to do it, along with a medical exam and job interview back-to-back on the same day (not the test though). So I’m assuming that they actually want me to work for them and that they have high hopes that I will pass their trials and get hired. Due to school and me wanting to spend summer for rest, I don’t think I can work.
I went to the nose specialist again to check with my nose, and he says that although my septum is straight, my sinus may be swelling which is causing the problems. I’m now using another different nasal spray for another month before I check with him again – honestly though, I still yield similar results as before. The first two nasal sprays were literally the same; the first time it treated my nose, but the second time it made my breathing even worse. This version kind of makes it better but I’m still not breathing perfectly as I did before all of this started last year.
He says that in a month if it doesn’t change, I have to get my nose scanned and from there we might have to get surgery done again (but with the sinus). Also, I checked with my family doctor and complained about my abdomen bringing discomfort when I lie down and just got an ultrasound scanning over the weekend. I have other health problems that I wish to discuss with my physician as well. Firstly, I want my acne to be permanently removed from my face by seeking a dermatologist. Secondly, I want my scalp that itches when I sweat to stop reacting that way too.
Thirdly, I want an optometrist to fix my eyes as they’re extremely messed up. For many years, my eyes have worsened from getting bad vision, being very red and itchy, and now it randomly gets blurry and is painful. I do have glasses but it doesn’t fix these issues; I can even see yellow tiny dots everywhere. Many sites have claimed that I need to see an eye specialist and get surgery or I will soon go blind which scares me. I also have problems with my digestive system but that’s from lack of eating fruits and vegetables which can I easily solve if it were not for my mental problems.
Yeah, I don’t think I really discussed this with you, did I? For as long as I can remember, ever since sometime during the freshman year, I started to show signs of abnormality. I would get very lazy, unmotivated, procrastinate, and not pay attention. Eventually, it got so bad that it interfered with my daily activities and has affected my marks negatively at school and my relationship with my parents who think I’m autistic. These issues are the causes on why I constantly forget and delay everything I do, including the video game reviews that I write and publish on this site.
At first I thought it was ADHD, but now I’m certain that it’s social anxiety. I actually can pay attention and stop procrastinating, but only when I’m forced to do or fear something. So that’s why I still manage to publish my video game reviews and submit my assignments on time. I also do not seem to show these issues with things I show heavy interest in, such as browsing the internet or playing video games. Whenever I am stressed out, I get very nervous and anxious, and I even start getting panic attacks and show other symptoms of anxiety rather than ADHD.
I am going to see a psychologist on Friday so please wish me luck and hope that I recover from my problems. Don’t really think the therapy sessions will help me out that much but I know the medicine will…because of the placebo effect. When this is all done, I can finally move on with life without these health problems. Okay, maybe not since I still need to fix my teeth, get a muscular body, and deal with my ever growing stress. But everything I do besides video game reviews, getting good grades in school, fulfilling my hobbies, and fixing my health issues will be done when I ascend into university.
Man, I can’t wait to get the hell out of high school! I’m not going to give the details or rant about it, so let’s just stop it at that. I should now move on to talking about what I’ll do for future gaming reviews. So I’ve now decided that I will only do three more reviews instead of four, but still haven’t decided what games I’ll review for certain except for No More Heroes. I’m currently have been playing Monster Hunter Tri for the past 3 months and halfway through. If I manage to beat the game before August, I promise to review that game as well even though I contradict myself.
Anyways, I’m in a dilemma on whether to review SimCity Creator or Sonic & Sega All-Stars Racing which I may have a poll for you guys to decide for me. After all this, I will review the Nintendo Wii itself, along with the Wii Remote (/Plus), Nunchuk, Classic Controller Pro, Wii Wheel, and Nintendo WFC in university. I’ll have to make a review template specifically for consoles and accessories though. I also will attempt it a few times before publishing so the release dates will be uncertain. And right after, I will do the same for the Nintendo Game-Cube, controllers, and accessories.
Since I haven’t played the old console since I was a preteen, I won’t be able to review any games except for Super Smash Bros. Melee and Sonic Mega Collection. I also don’t plan on playing video games at all (except for mobile and PC games) until after I graduate and move out from the family household. My parents are so strict with my video games and I refuse to deal with it any longer, so I’m going to do many side and part-time jobs to earn as much money and get the hell out of here. But when I do, know that I will continue with my reviews and my video game life.
By then I would have gotten and played through games for the Nintendo Game-Cube, 64, and Wii U; Sony PlayStation, PS2, PS3, PS4, and the PS4.5 or whatever they call it (and the PS5 if Sony ever releases that). Yes, I had a crappy childhood where I only had the Game-Cube and Wii but blame my xenophobic parents and not me. I always am updated with the latest news on video games and am neutral, not a fanboy or leaning towards any specific brand or platform…okay, maybe towards PC. However, this is all in the far future which is uncertain and can easily change without notice.
Remember several months ago when I said I wanted to update my site with new content besides reviews? I think I’ll do just that when I’m in university so that it’s not empty for the next four years. I’m not sure if I should write editorials, news articles, or FAQ guides, so that will be decided soon. I won’t know how this will turn out, but I hope that it can be just as interesting as my reviews. Maybe I should have another poll on what I should do to continue this site during university. Anyways, this is all that I have for now and see you at the end of June!