Future Dream PC Specifications

I’ve always wanted to be able to play the games that I want, but because newer games require more powerful hardware that’s not the reality I’m living. While I am glad that my current laptop is roughly thrice as powerful as my previous ultra-book, I’m still not satisfied yet. I can only play games at 900p high settings and get 45-60fps for titles released from 2009-2012; anything newer and I have to play at lower settings and resolution and/or get console quality performance. That’s why I plan to “upgrade” by buying an entirely new laptop meant for gaming in the future.

Current Laptop Specifications:

  • Form Factor: Laptop | Manufacturer: Lenovo
  • Model: Lenovo Ideapad 310-15ABR
  • CPU: AMD A10 9600P 7th Gen @ 2.4 GHZ (4 Cores)
  • APU: AMD Radeon R5 Graphics with 512 MB VRAM
  • OS: Windows 10 Home X64 Bit
  • RAM: 12 GB DDR4 Memory | Storage: 128 GB SSD
  • Display: 1366X768 HD 15.6″ 60HZ LCD
  • DirectX: Version 12 (Software & APU)
  • MSRP: $600 – 800 CAD {as of March 2017}

At first, being the naïve person that I was, I assumed I could just upgrade the CPU and GPU of my current laptop. But laptop parts, except for the RAM and storage, can’t be replaced separately like with desktops and workstations, so I have to spend even more money for an entirely new computer. Even then, I originally intended to get Intel Core i5 CPU that was quad core and had a clock speed of 3.0 GHZ. For the GPU, I thought that an entry level mid range card like the Nvidia GeForce GTX 750Ti was sufficient. I even thought that 1 GB of VRAM was totally enough to play newer games!

Of course, I consulted the Steam forums (feature discussions not the toxic forums) and reality hit me hard in the face. Then I went on Best-Buy, before going to Amazon and then Newegg to search for the perfect gaming laptop. My first year roommate told me that I’d have to spend at least 1000 CAD (800 USD roughly) and he was totally right as even entry level mid range laptops cost that much. When I tried searching for Alienware and Predator, prices typically ranged from 1500 to even 2000 CAD (1300 – 1800 USD)! I definitely needed to do more researching which I did later on.

Proposed Future Laptop Specifications:

  • Form Factor: Laptop | Manufacturer: Acer, Asus, Dell
  • CPU: Intel Core i5 7th Gen @ 2.5 GHZ (2 Cores)
  • GPU: Nvidia GeForce GTX 960 with 2 GB of VRAM
  • OS: Windows 10 Home X64 Bit
  • RAM: 8 GB DDR4 Memory | Storage: 256 GB SSD
  • Display: 1920X1080 FHD 17.3″ 60HZ LCD
  • DirectX: Version 12 (Software & GPU)
  • MSRP: $800 – $1000 CAD ($600 – $800 USD)

The above specs were essentially comprised of in laptops that were within the budget and gaming wants at the time. However, after again consulting with people on the Steam feature discussions they told me those specs while decent weren’t future proof. In layman terms, it wouldn’t let me be able to play even newer games and I did even more research after that. I discovered that while I can play games from 2013 – 2015 with those above specs at 1080p high settings and 60fps, I still have to lower the settings and/or get shit performance for games from 2016 and beyond.

A friend (no longer, but she’s a stranger) on Steam recommended I get Acer Predator and to look at laptops with similar specs. I then checked it and the price was way too expensive and the hardware was almost close to being high-end. Like do I really need Intel Core i7 or GTX 1060 with 6 GB of VRAM or even 16 GB RAM? I then decided to find a laptop that had specs superior to specs listed above but weaker than overpriced gaming laptops. That way I can be satisfied with both the price and hardware, and not have to worry about having to upgrade again in only a short amount of time.

To my joy and fortune, I managed to actually find the “middle way” by finding a laptop with the ideal specs and it’s around the same price as entry level mid range laptops. I have come to a dilemma and can’t decide whether to get the Acer Aspire VX15 or the Acer Aspire Nitro 5, as there was another Acer gaming laptop that was very cheap in price but sadly got sold out on Amazon for being so awesome. They both have literally the same specs (except for case, fans, battery, etc.) but VX15 is more expensive plus it’s shipped by Canada Computers while latter is cheaper and shipped by Amazon.

Future Gaming Laptop Specifications:

  • Form Factor: Gaming Laptop | Manufacturer: Acer
  • Model: Acer Aspire Nitro 5 or Aspire VX15
  • CPU: Intel Core i5-7300HQ @ 3.5 GHZ (4 Cores) 7th Gen
  • GPU: Nvidia GeForce GTX 1050 with 4 GB GDDR5 VRAM
  • OS: Windows 10 Home X64 Bit
  • RAM: 8 GB DDR4 Memory | Storage: 256 GB SSD
  • Display: 1920X1080 FHD 15.6″ 60HZ LCD
  • DirectX: Version 12 (Software & GPU)
  • MSRP: $1000 – $1300 CAD ($800 – $1100 USD)

Well, even if both these laptops get sold out and don’t get restocked on Amazon or other websites, Acer will simply make newer gaming laptops in the future. Or I can always wait when I have the money and the need to play newer games, and then I’ll be able to afford such expensive and beautiful hardware. Now I just have to wait to actually get a job or find a way to make some decent amount of money. Speaking of which, I just installed Radeon ReLive so I’ll be recording game footage shortly so that my dream of being a YouTuber can finally become a reality after all these years!



Difficulty In Choosing New Games

Sorry for not posting in over a month, but as I’ve said countless times in the past, I am attending university and this year has been off to a…rough start. It doesn’t have anything to do with people I don’t like or courses being too hard, so don’t you people worry as negotiations with the landlord have helped. I wanted to actually post this last month, but because of such circumstances (I promised I won’t reveal much anymore sorry) I’ve refrained from doing so. To make up for that, I’ll be posting several different blog posts this week as I have no lectures…too bad I have to study for mid-terms. 😦

This issue has persisted even in the past when I was still playing on the Wii but it’s even greater now on PC. Whenever I get sick of playing the current game(s), I just want to move on and play new games. Problem is, I don’t really know what to play as I bought over 30 games during the Steam summer sale this year! I’ve tried Counter Strike: Source, the Sonic Adventure remakes, Sonic 4: Episode 2, Garry’s Mod, and even The Sims 3 yet I still keep going back to Left 4 Dead 2. Except for SADX and CSS, all the others I only played for a little bit, couldn’t get immersed, and then stopped playing them.

Well I’m currently playing Sims 3 and just started but haven’t really gotten immersed because it’s a kind of game where I only play it when I’m comfortable. That includes not having outside noise or interference, being relaxed from a good day, and actually being in the mood to play it. Anyways, about the process I usually determine what genre and then the franchises and then I go from there. There are many shooters that I have like CSGO, Borderlands 2, and Mass Effect that I’ll probably enjoy but I’ve been playing too much gun games so that’s why I’m avoiding them for now.

I know that things don’t always go the way you want it and that’s why I didn’t really play the Batman Arkham titles or the Tomb Raider games. I’ve always had this naïve belief that once I’m done with one game, I can magically get immersed and love the next game that I choose, with the cycle repeating happily forever after. But I’m not a child or even a teenager anymore and I have real life responsibilities to do (after all, I don’t want to risk getting kicked out of college for shitty grades). I’ll probably just play the older GTA games – GTA 3, Vice City, and San Andreas – later down the months.

Besides those, there are also many other factors that make it difficult to play newer games. Some games on my Steam wish-list are either too expensive (even during sales) and/or require hardware that is well beyond my budget. I do plan to buy a mid range gaming laptop – either the Acer Aspire VX15 or the Acer Aspire Nitro 5 – however I’m broke because of tuition fees and renting costs. I also kind of want to go back and play my older games and others that I haven’t touched yet on console though sadly I can’t since it would disturb the other tenants that live together with me.

So anyways, how easy or how hard is it for you people to choose new games to play when you guys are done playing current ones? I’m running out of stuff to say but I’ve said what I wanted to say just now. Well, one more thing is that I think the only way I could get fully immersed is if I choose a game that fits the right genre, and when I’m the right mood and environment to be very comfortable. You’ll be updated with the next few blog posts very soon so no need to keep on writing to continue this post. In fact, look out for another one shortly after this one is published. 😉

First Person Games Aren’t So “Realistic”

This blog post was originally something that I posted on my now discontinued Nigga Nintendo Nerd site that existed a few years ago. I’ve decided to reboot and retcon such a post now that I have more experience with shooters and first person games in general, so I can give a more detailed analysis. For those that are new, I used to have another WordPress blog prior to MRN back in the summer of 2014 but I cancelled it for many different reasons. One was the layout, another I was just desperate at writing, I wanted to write reviews, and because my classmate stalked me online.

Without further ado, I’ll get right into my “rant” and analysis on how and why first person games, and to a certain extent shooters, aren’t as realistic as they are marketed by the publishers. It’s not just about the view and perspective of first person games, but also the mechanics that are implemented. I know that video games aren’t simulators or VR (unless marketed and designed as such) so they shouldn’t be taken that seriously. However, it still makes me disappointed that people actually are naïve and stupid enough to believe that such games are very realistic and actually emulate reality very closely.

First Person “Perspective”

What really pisses me off about games that take place from a first person perspective is how much they fail at trying to copy real life. Yes, I can look and move around in all directions, although when I look down below me I see only the ground. Re-read the last part of the previous sentence, and you’ll know exactly what’s wrong… is that you can’t see any parts of your body except for hands and arms! So the developers think that having players see through the eyes of the protagonist is indeed realistic, but not including their body in first person mode isn’t?

When we all look down we can see our legs, crotch, stomach, arms, hands, and sometimes even our chest. But in many first person games you see none of that when looking down so it’s as if we’re playing as a floating head with arms and hands. Look, I get that you can’t really program the character to move their eyes and see their nose and parts of their face. It’s just really awkward when I enter a vehicle in first person mode and then it looks as if it’s driving itself or I’m using telekinesis, since I’m not using (able to see) any hands to maneuver the vehicle.

Now this wouldn’t be a problem for older games released on systems with hardware limitations or games that aren’t marketed as being realistic. Nevertheless, newer games and those especially promised to emulate reality shouldn’t fail to captivate consumers by not adding such a small detail that should be common sense. Not just the fact that such games and their developers technically broke a few laws, but also fails to deliver the realistic experience that was promised. Kind of like how the PS4 Pro and Xbox One X aren’t true native 4K resolution despite advertised as legitimate 4K.

Another characteristic of first person mode that isn’t close to its real life counterpart is the FOV or field of view. That’s basically how much you can see within your range of vision (which is your television screen or PC monitor). We humans tend to see our environment in a 180 degree angle whereas you can only see roughly 90 to about 110 degrees of the FOV in first person games. Also, we also view reality as a curvy “dome” and video games are displayed on a flat 2D surface. Some monitors are designed to be curvy but those are very rare and many games aren’t optimized for it.

The view model is the final and last feature of first person perspective that isn’t even close to how it is in real life. This is how close or far away the body parts are positioned from the screen. Many shooters depict players holding the gun with their hands so close to the screen and only being able to see a little past the wrist area. With the exception of pistols, I cannot even believe how developers can convince people to believe that people actually hold guns like that in real life. This is just nitpicking, but when looking in a mirror our characters aren’t replicated 1:1 to their reflections.

Problems Playing In FPP

So what’s wrong with not having an accurate first person perspective other than breaking minor laws and ethics/morals you ask? It makes the game a lot harder in specific situations or areas, especially those in the action and platform genres. Say I have to jump over to a far ledge and I have to do it quickly, but then because I can’t see the rest of my body I can’t properly distance how far I am from falling. I then either make it due to poor collision detection, pure luck, or just fall and fail simply because I couldn’t see my legs. And many games have platforming segments no matter what.

Or say I’m fighting a fuck ton of enemies or a boss that sends a thousand projectiles at my way. The reality is that I can only fend off those that I can directly see within my limited range of vision and somewhat with my hearing. To counter such limitations, developers usually add arrows or colors to areas where you’re getting hit off screen so you can react properly. I don’t know…maybe if you idiots allowed us to see more than just what’s in front of us and not have invisible bodies, then maybe, just maybe we could react before and/or faster instead of buying better monitor(s)?

Another issue is something that is specifically relevant mostly to shooters. Why can’t I ever use the sights of guns that have them attached to have better accuracy? If the developers are going to add the sights to guns like the M16 and AK47 to emulate the designs how come we can’t use them to make it more “realistic”? It’s not the same as a scope where we can use them to zoom in and aim at enemies from extremely far distances. And having a crosshair for aiming isn’t so realistic as only snipers and scopes have them, and you need training to even aim with guns due to recoil.

I can’t believe I forgot about this until now – collision detection is also another issue with first person games lacking visible bodies. I often think I bumped into a wall, obstacle, or enemy when really I didn’t and other times when I’m so far away I still somehow manage to touch them. This sort of inconsistency could be solved with better programming or by simply having a visible lower body. Sadly, developers don’t implement neither of these solutions and is more of a pet peeve than a difficulty spike for veterans compared to those of beginners and noobs.

Gameplay Mechanics In FPP

Let me discuss about the different mechanics that developers add into first person games to make it seem more realistic when it only makes it more fictional. First is the speed of movement and different ways to do so (crouching, walking, and sprinting). Why the hell is the default speed not aligned with the sounds of footsteps? How can developers actually think they can fool us thinking that we’re speed-walking but it sounds like we’re only walking? I know this might seem nitpicking though developers intentionally market such games as realistic so I’m going to criticize them for being so fake.

Also when crouching or crawling, it looks like the character is at a very low altitude; however, compare it to the height of nearby objects. Then you’ll notice they aren’t actually crouching and crawling, rather they’re just slightly ducking which gives slightly better accuracy when jumping and shooting. If you look at enemies crouching or crawling, it looks very ridiculous and makes them more visible targets in shooting games. Maybe if the developers actually made them crouch and crawl much lower it would be harder to be detected by enemies and be more realistic?

When it comes to walking and sprinting, you become as slow as a snail with the former and become Usain Bolt with the latter. Shouldn’t walking be a…little faster and sprinting be a little slower or at least with stamina to hinder it? Anyways, strafing is something that you wouldn’t normally do even when shooting in real life as it looks ridiculous and also isn’t effective when making turns. Speaking of Bolt, shouldn’t the characters ever tire out after awhile, especially those carrying heavy ass guns and equipment? And how come characters can jump high enough to go over hurdles?

I don’t understand how switching from first person to third person in some circumstances is acceptable as realistic? Like can I suddenly make my eyes teleport so that I can see from a third person perspective? I know it’s just video games, but how is it realistic to simply crouch for a few seconds and then regenerate? I find it more believable to heal from pills, med-kits, energy bars, or even hearts even though those defy logic and science too lol. Regenerating health and respawning upon death makes many shooters like COD and Battlefield very fake and not realistic.

I can honestly go on and rant about how unrealistic these games are so I think I’ll just end it here since you guys should understand my point now. There actually are lots of first person games that do try to be more realistic by adding lower body (Left 4 Dead), following the physics of actual shooting (CSS & CSGO), and having realistic FOV and view model (most Valve games). I can’t believe games like Zelda and Metroid implement features that are fake but still seem more realistic than what you use in typical fake shooters played by kids and man children living with their parents.

Never Going To Use Steam Forums Again!

This editorial will probably be the last one before I start publishing reviews again for the time being. I know this is more of a rant than anything else, but since it personally affects me and involves matters that caused me to start blogging in the first place, I think it’s important to write it here on MRN. Due to the Steam moderators being extremely corrupt, rude, and egotistical, I will no longer be using the official Steam discussions although I will still be using game hub forums and Steam feature discussions. The title of this editorial is sort of click-bait so I apologize now.

Anyways, I’m sick and tired of these mods who go after innocent people who try to get them punished for corruption while others like me that don’t show complete obedience to them. We’re not your slaves, you don’t put the food on our tables, and you aren’t executive staff at Valve – you are equal to us. I don’t understand why you assholes have to abuse the authority (not power) given to you simply because other people make fun of you or they hurt your fragile ego. It’s always those that have authority that get the ego thing up their fucking asses.

I almost never see people with power (except for egotistical thin-skinned politicians) abuse it the way those with authority do. They aren’t going to stoop to the level of people that insult and criticize them and exact retribution to boost their egos. They have other more important matters and problems to worry about than a bunch of common folk roasting them. Actually, if such people did abuse the power they would immediately regret it since their reputation has been damaged so they’ll avoid it to save face. But authority figures just don’t seem to care…or do they?

Oh wait, they actually do care about losing face so to prevent that, they’ll delete all the evidence along with punishing those involved to silence them. And even after being exposed, more often than not their higher-ups will just let them get away with it or the punishment they receive will be a slap on the wrist. I noticed all moderators are like that, but for some reason it’s the Steam moderators that are the absolute worst. Only a few mods and admins I met in GameSpot and other sites were extremely corrupt and egotistical about people exposing and insulting them.

Simply put, I’ve made this decision a few days I’ve been banned for the 4th time on Steam for a minor infraction. They would rather go after people like me, but not trolls that constantly violate the community guidelines. If being a moderator is just volunteering, why do they go out of their way to go after people that undermine their authority? Well I already answered my own question so from here on out, I’m just going to post in the alternative forums as mentioned before, or simply finally move on and join Reddit for the first time in my life.

Likewise, all other forum sites aren’t innocent either as they too have their fair share or corrupt and/or egotistical moderators and admins. Back then, I constantly got warnings, bans, then permabans for the stupidest or unfair of reasons. Lots of times the admins permabanned me weren’t even because of trolling! The only forums where I’m still safe from being punished are GameFAQS and Super-Cheats which I don’t even use and haven’t logged on for years. If they aren’t going to do their fucking jobs properly, they may as well restrict or eliminate the forums altogether.

Yes I know, in the rules it specifically states for all forums that mods and admins can modify, transfer, or delete any posts/threads that they feel are inappropriate within their own discretion. But such a rule is extremely vague and basically lets such corrupted lightweights do whatever the hell they want. It’s basically the developers’ or site publishers’ way of giving the users the middle finger, saying “Fuck you guys! This is our site, our rules, and you obey them like you’re our bitches.” There’s essentially no existence of freedom of speech in these forum sites.

Some of you are probably going to tell me that freedoms and rights are bullshit and site creators can decide how they want to run their sites. I agree with that but only to a certain extent, because while there are limits to freedoms if abused, they must still be allowed as the site creators must follow the laws of the countries and/or continents that they operate in. Sorry but if they don’t want to comply with the law, then their website will simply get blocked by the government or the companies will suffer from lawsuits by government agencies to punish them for disobeying.

And Valve has had many incidents of being sued or threatened by such agencies for violating laws time and time again. Like when they refused to issue refunds in Europe even though European Union law states that consumers can refund products whenever they want for whatever reason even if they just don’t feel like it. Or how about when they were threatened by a Washington agency for allowing gambling sites for CSGO to exist and flourish for minors? That wasn’t specifically relevant with corrupted mods but it still applies since nobody is above the law.

To sum it all up, I’m no longer using the official Steam discussions even after my temporary ban expires and only using alternative forums after. I tried appealing to Steam Support but they were just as passive aggressive and useless like before, just like when they offered no solutions to the malfunctioning l4d2 servers. I would often visit Reddit months before I even joined Steam and loved how the way it was structured and allowed people to discuss very controversial topics. I learned through experience is that the grass really is greener on the other side of the fence.

What If I Owned A PS3 Back Then?

Let’s just say I discovered how to time travel, and not only would it not create alternate timelines, but changing my past would allow me to relive it as well. One of the things that I would choose to change is the video game consoles that I grow up with. Instead of starting off with the Nintendo Game-Cube, then the Wii, and trying out PSP, GBC, GBA, DS, 3DS, Wii U, PS2, PS3, before finally transitioning to mobile and PC; I would grow up with the N64, Game-Cube, Wii, Wii U, PS3, PS4, GBA, DS, 3DS, PSP, PC, and try out mobile, GBC, PC, Xbox 360, Xbox One, PS4 Pro, and the Switch.

Sadly, such events would never happen as it has been scientifically proven that time travel is impossible with current technology and way physics work. Even if time travel was possible, it would result in alternate timeline being created with the original unaffected. Also, time travel to the future is definitely possible when the technology allows it while travel to the past would break the laws of physics. I’ve always thought of how things would be better if I was simply born into a family with loving, functional, intelligent, young, richer, and competent parents.

Okay, if I were to narrate the story of how my childhood would be if I had all of those systems we would be here all day. Rather I will simply explain how my life would turn out if I grew up with the PS3 and then go from there. Of course, it would lead me to getting the PS2, PSP, and PS4 in this what-if scenario as I have a huge interest and passion for gaming. Since I’m not a psychic take these hypothetical events with a grain of salt and remember this is only for entertainment purposes. As always, I’ll try my best to make the article shorter than it needs to be.

Transitioning To Next-Gen Consoles

Obviously since at the time the Nintendo Wii was released, I would still inevitably gotten and played it since that was the rage during 2006-2010. But with peer pressure and my curiosity in just about any new product, I would have gotten the PS3 by my hypothetical loving parents in exchange for getting high grades in middle school. From there, I would begin playing major third party titles that my friends played and what the internet recommended (Mass Effect, Borderland, COD, etc). Since PSN was free back then, I also would’ve enjoyed playing online for the first time in my life.

But then after a few years, things would actually get pretty boring for me and I’d go back to the Wii and experience its rare gems too. If I had loving parents, not only would they have bought me new systems that I wanted so long that I did well in school, they also would have let me play whenever and how long I wanted. Yes, it’s quite embarrassing to admit this, but due to the anonymity of the internet , I might as well go ahead and reveal this. In my entire childhood, my strict parents refused to let me play during the weekdays and only allowed during weekends and holidays.

Even then, I was unfortunately severely limited by how much time I could spend during those non-school days. I had to constantly argue and manipulate my dysfunctional parents in order to get more playtime during weekends and holidays. At first, I was only allowed to play 30 minutes a day, then to 1 hour, after to 1 hour 30 minutes, and then 1 hour 45 minutes, eventually getting 2 hours. Now do you see why I played so little games and am very inexperienced with gaming in general? Of course, ever since entering university I played whenever and as long as I wanted.

Back to the hypothetical scenario, after years of enjoying my gaming journey on both the PS3 and Wii, I would move on to next-gen consoles. Again, so long as I maintained high grades, my (sadly fake) loving parents would then purchase Wii U and eventually PS4 too. Unlike my teenage years wasted on playing only a few dozen Wii games with only a few considered “AAA quality,” this altered past (if only it were real) would be much better. The experiences would be extremely similar if not the same as what I experience when I first started getting into PC gaming via Steam.

First thing is I would be blown away by the amazing graphics and hardware in the next-gen systems. Another is how much the online “platforms” for both PS4 and Wii U have improved from their predecessors. Of course these impressions I would also get from playing the PS3 for the first time; however, it wouldn’t be as extreme since the graphical difference between the Wii and PS3 wasn’t noticeable until around 2009. Sadly, after several years of playing the latest and greatest titles, I would come to another sad truth about the gaming industry like I do now.

The reality of modern video games is that most of them are the same old shit we’ve been playing for years with only graphics and extra content being different. And when the developers do try being innovative, they take things to the extreme and fail so they go back to older roots and play it safe. That would then result in me on longer being very interested in gaming and allows me to have complete self control with that hobby and be able to do other more fun and/or productive tasks. Sadly, it is in my current life that I still haven’t gotten over my “addictive” gaming phase yet.

Experimenting With Other Platforms

With this alternate reality where my gaming life isn’t inhibited, I also would want to try out and play handheld, mobile, and PC gaming. Having played on so many consoles, beaten probably hundreds of games over the course of a decade, and being able to balance it with school and other important tasks would convince me to go further. My hypothetical understanding parents would certainly buy me the GBC, GBA, and DS as a kid to be happy, while getting the 3DS, PSP, and mobile devices through the achievement of high grades and other useful accomplishments.

Since I wouldn’t be limited by when and how much I can play, eventually I would easily get over the addiction phase and have complete control. That along with being a successful child would convince my sadly fake loving parents to believe that I am more than capable of having these extra gadgets for fun. Never again would I be bored (as having normal parents would also enable me to enrol in extra circular activities and attend much more social events) and be seen as a gaming addict. Hell, they’d probably even try out gaming as a way to bond with me as well.

By the time I reach college, I would have already played so much games on so much systems that I wouldn’t be the semi-failure that I am today. Yes, gaming so much in university sort of lowered my GPA (there were other legitimate factors) and it made me lose motivation in doing other things. With this summer being over halfway completed, I have managed to get over the “addictive” phase as well, and this coming fall I will be able to have total control. Anyways, since PC gaming is extremely expensive and me ceasing to be a minor, my parents would no longer fund my gaming hobby.

Unlike my current situation where I started with a low end potato PC (and still am, albeit a better one), I would save up enough money for a gaming laptop. Instantly skipping low end hardware and starting off right with mid range PC, I could for the first time in my life experience how PC gaming is superior to consoles without the limitations that I face in my real life. I would then no longer want to go back to them and most likely sell almost all my systems and games to save up even more money so that I can immediately assemble a super high end gaming PC upon graduating.

But due to my nostalgia, I wouldn’t completely abandon consoles and try out the PS4 Pro, Xbox One, Xbox One X, and the Nintendo Switch. Having way more knowledge and experience in this alternate reality, I’d decide to no longer buy these consoles although I would play them with friends on their systems. So there you have it, the hypothetical alternate reality of what my gaming life would be like had I been born into a loving, functional, intelligent, competent, richer family. Not just my gaming life would change, but so would my social, educational, and personal life also.

Other Changes In What-If Scenario

I’ve already mentioned how I wouldn’t have the limitations that I have in my current pathetic life so let me elaborate it in detail. Sure, I would still be limited in playtime as a kid and sort of as a teenager, but when I begin and continue proving I have good grades and other achievements, my fictional parents would be proud of me. They would increase the limits and let me play much more often until eventually I virtually have none since they have enough trust that I can control myself. I’m honestly getting emotional just thinking about how pathetic my life is.

By doing other activities and actually being engaged with other people, my alternate parents wouldn’t be concerned about gaming so much. Therefore, having so much systems and games shouldn’t make me seem like a loser and is necessary to obtain self control which would help later throughout my life. Speaking of addiction, since my hypothetical awesome parents would be the complete opposite of my dysfunctional irrational ones, I wouldn’t turn out to be so obsessed with gaming and be able to be very successful in university and also in getting a job.

Actually having a part time job also contributes to the savings I collect to eventually not only fund my PC gaming “career”, but also other things such as dating, taxes, bills, renting, textbooks, eating, transportation, etc. I’m not really get too personal about how my life would be different, but anybody with decent amount of logic/reasoning can deduce that I wouldn’t turn out to be the loser that I am today. Okay, I might seem too harsh on myself but it was to make you readers understand how better off I would be if I had functional superior loving parents.

In my current life, I have only barely had complete control after overcoming my “addiction” with gaming in university. I still am trying to buy even more games and trying to save money so I can not only buy a mid range gaming laptop, but also a high end workstation PC, all the consoles and handhelds I ever wanted, and all the games I ever wanted and more. Childhood is the time when you get to be truly yourself and not have to worry about consequences and responsibilities. What pains me is that had I had better parents, my life wouldn’t be a load of shit like it is for me now.